It's been sometime.. I really wanted to update my blog if it's not because of the piling of works that need immediate attention. But no matter how busy life can be, the priority of life must always rest in GOD..
Years ago, I have experienced a great temptation in my life. So great is the temptation that I can end up crying and feeling guilty. If it was now, any temptation, no matter how great it is, I have my Jesus to depend on. But back then, it was my Jesus that push me into the verge of guilty beyond explanation.. And that is a phase in my life that had make me, ME! Praise god.
If u ever been in a phase where u have doubt in your existence and the person behind it, then we sure did have something in common. I've been in that shoe before. Luckily I manage to eventually found what shoe I should have bought in the beginning.
If you are Christian or someone who 'claims' to be one, ask yourselves, 'WHERE WILL I GO?' and NO I'm not talking bout asking yourselves where to hangout tonight or this weekend. Instead I'm asking you to ask yourselves, if I die, where would i go? Peculiar enough, I have been asking this to myself since I was just 9. It had been a puzzle to me before. "Why God create me, if I am destined to die someday?" "What's the reason of my existence?" - those kind of Question come across my mind once a while. But being a toddler bring me no where near to the answer. Eventually, all those questions subsided together with teens raging hormone.
It was when I was 18 that my faith had been tested to the point I end up doubting my belief and faith to my Jesus. I was in college doing my pre-U studies when this particular teacher who seems nice and all start to get 'interested' with my faith. Questions rained on me. Mostly, those I have no clue on how to answer. At that point, his questions become my doubting reason. 'Am I worshiping the correct God'? - The ultimate question!
For a year, I struggle with doubt. Though I carry on performing my duty as a Christian, I had lost my foundation. But deep down in my heart I know I HAVE to find the answer. And so I thought, if I need to find the answer, I must first look for it in the bible. That's when the hunting begun.
Praise be to Lord - HE, knowing my incapability - had change my doubt into unwavering faith. The bible had open my eyes. Had finally put my scavenging heart to rest. I cried when my heart were touched deeply. John 14:6 speaks clearly to me.
Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
Bull eyes!
My journey had not been easy. It took me a while to fully 'experienced' His love. I took me a slap. A heart break.. A pain.. And now I can proudly claim I AM A CHRISTIAN. His miracles resonate in my life. I can't never convince you on how great the miracles are. U have to experience it yourselves to know.
Where will all Christian go? If you put your faith in Him and get your faith going in action, believe it, He's waiting for us in Heaven. Amen!
Till finger meet keypad again. God bless!
(Published in fishonfriday.wordpress.com on 13 Sept 10)
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